Friday, February 18, 2011

Satisfaction

Here's some food for thought:
Go to lunch with a friend;
Send a letter in the mail;
Have some fun.
I know what you did last summer.

Love is pure;
Sex is hot.
Don't leave the door closed,
or your shirt tucked in.

You're not as clear or innocent
as you seem.
The glass is cloudy.
The numbers are there.

Don't be afraid.
Live a little.
The grass isn't always greener;
You are who you are.

Fulfilled.

Beginnings

I think writers are a gateway to another world. Or even a reflection on the world at large. What's important about a writer is a he writes what he feels. It's personal. It's easy for some, hard for others.

When I write, I feel comfortable. It's who I am. In my blood. I have issues with what's the "right" way of writing versus how I tend to write. Sometimes I don't write because I feel my style is unique. It's free-flowing thoughts. A period at the end of a word.

What I really want is reassurance that how I write, what I write, is okay. I'm afraid of failing at getting across what I want to. And being unliked. I want to be well read.

If I had one dream, it would be publishing a series that hit it. That best sold in 40 countries. That people everywhere get something from.

I am me. First and foremost. And that comes across in my writing. My heart and soul is in everything I write. I feel good about it. I want others to feel good about it. I want others to love my stories and my world. I want to be a writer. Published. Television. I'm going to write. I am going to inspire others to write. Create. Live.

I promise myself that I will stick with it. Keep it from faltering. By this time next month, I will have a number of writings with my authorship.

I think that fear of not being good enough is what prohibits me from continuing through with the ideas and plans that I make for myself. It's why I have rewritten the same beginning to the same idea for 7 years now. What if it is not well received? What if people think I'm merely rehashing old ideas? What if people take it and trash it? And what if the idea I have is my only good idea? What if I don't have another one?

Writing is personal. Letting someone in is personal. It's a reason why I have relationship issues. I'm constantly searching for approval and that's why I can't commit. I have issues I need to face. Maybe this blog can help with that.